My face is literally stripped of skin. My nose is boken. My eyes are bulged out and I can’t see anything….the slightest sound sets me off. I got jumped! Kristen, Hallie, Dana, Becca, and Flannery BEAT me! They jumped me! I walked into the house and all of them except fucking Kyle started screaming at me…and kicking me, and punchng me. They hit me so hard and so much. It was traumatic. There is NOBODY I can talk to. I am dirt. I am GARBAGE.
All this heartache, I just have so much, a simple love with a complex touch.
he day when the smartest perso in your classroom gets an F on an assignment, you know something is wrong.
May 17th, Bill Bradley was born. He started going to Valley Middle School in 6th grade, and became my best friend in 7th-8th grade. He is turning 15 this year. So I am going to celebrate his birthday by buying him 15 packs of hot tamales for 15 days past his birthday. He won’t even suspect. To wish him a happy birthday, <3 my post.
I always thought, I’d rather be safe than “eternally sorry”.
Some people decide to believe that they would be punished, for something they’ve done. But there are tooo many holes in religion for it to make logical sense.
Why would a creator, whom is ultimately divine, whom knows all that is, was and ever will be.
Why would that creator PUNISH you, for the way he/she/it made you?
They say Jesus died for our sins, yes?
Well wouldn’t that mean we all have an automatic access into heaven, because Jesus died for your sins?
OR did jesus only die for the sins of the people living in THAT age?
then they say repent, repent!
Why repent if Jesus already gave his life, to save us?
Or wait, his sacrifice apparently wasn’t enough..
When GOD is eternally wise, then why would god allow souls ((Whom he KNEW were destined for hell)) ever come into existence? Why?
Does he enjoy creating flawed beings and punishing them for the very flaws he gave them?
Gaaargh, am I the only one going mental on this!?
Why would He tell us time and time again in the Bible and in our prayers that we are not perfect when HE created us that way? Why would He make us imperfect then punish us? Do you know what I realized? I try time and time again to be perfect, and I fail EVERY time. I have tried to stop eating to look perfect, I have tried to pray every day and read my Bible every day, but failed. I have tried to get closer to my family….but something ruined that, so that failed, and Lucifer is just trying to rip my life apart and use me against God. I am already in a pretty defensive mood about something that happened earlier, and I am NOT letting Lucifer ruin my life just to get back at God. God had a perfectly good reason to kick Lucifer out of Heaven….Lucifer was trying to be equal with God.
On the other hand, God could read Lucifer’s mind, right? Doesn’t God know what you think before you even think it? Why was God so surprised? Like I said…..trying to be perfect kills you, so Lucifer did that to himself. He got HIMSELF kicked out of Heaven and sent to Hell. He did that all on his own.
Is it just me, or does everything seem to be grey when your around me? I don’t know why, but everything seems to die when you show up. When I see your face, my hope gets torn apart and I get bruised and beaten. I love you, yet despise you. I need you, yet cannot stand you. I want to be with you, but I’m scared of you. How is this possible? Oh yes yes now I know! You hurt me. On purpose. And you try to make it seem like it’s my fault. Like you say “this is your fault” or “why can’t you be perfect” or “you brought this on yourself.”
Hold up the world
My new notebooks. Writing is my LIFE.
ink on bristol paper